…from in the inside

When I say that I aspire to be That Nothing some listeners do not understand.  Many conclude that I have given up. Others think that I want to leave this plane or no longer have interest in shaping my world. None of these is correct. I AM just in the midst of a self-transformation and That Nothing is the desired outcome.

Although some enlightened ones have advised me otherwise, I still everyone want to grasp the meaning of what I say. I AM, after all, one among them. The following is yet another attempt to elucidate That Nothing. It really is not so complicated.

I want to be That Nothing referenced in a previous post. I want to be able to sit with The Divine and not be troubled by the affairs of man while maintaining my connections.  I AM routinely informed THAT NOTHING sits with The Divine, aloof from yet still engaged with man. I say “OK, I want to be That Nothing!”  That Nothing is very simple yet extremely important. Consider this example…

Thirty spokes converge upon a single hub;

It is on the hole in the center that the use of the cart hinges.

We make a vessel from a lump of clay;

It is the empty space within the vessel that makes it useful.

We make doors and windows for a room;

But it is these empty spaces that make the room livable.

Thus, while the tangible has advantages,

It is the intangible that makes it useful.

Tao The Ching 11

Too often in life people are consumed by the quest to acquire something.  They are drawn to others in that quest allow themselves to become commodities that are exhausted in the process.  People hurt themselves and others while acquiring something.  Is there a struggle to acquire Nothing?

Once in the process of pursuit man is often thoughtless and even careless regarding all else. Many argue that the end justifies the means. Is there really an end? So-called accidents happen in the process that have destructive consequences. What are the consequences when Nothing is destroyed?

A vacuum can become filled with anything. Quality is not an issue. That Nothing is not a vacuum. That Nothing is already full with the essence of the transformation. That Nothing IS of lasting and intrinsic value.

The vessel, the form I AM assumes, will change but the essence of what I AM IS remains constant.  I AM the essence of That Nothing I aspire to become.

I AM what I AM and incha’Allah WILL BE That Nothing …and maybe that IS EVERYTHING?

Please Be Patient!

I intend to keep you abreast of this evolution in process.

Let’s talk soon.


toward something new

I AM like a 90-minute cassette trying to record the 91st minute of music – so full that I am now empty; old technology but still workable. Change is necessary as I continue. I AM a full yet empty vessel in the process of self-transformation.

I AM taught to remain calm because this is not unlike the metamorphosis of a caterpillar into a butterfly. At a certain point the caterpillar feels impelled to wrap itself in a cocoon. Immobile, it begins to dissolve. There is no sense of a marvelous new life that is coming; there is only the dissolving of the old, and the deep fears that accompany this. The caterpillar literally turns into a kind of goo, and only from that annihilation of the old form can the magnificent new form of the butterfly emerge.

I have excellent teachers and get a sense of this radical process of self-transformation from them – those who have experienced it. They provide guidance as I go through this process.

I recognize that self-transformation doesn’t just happen. It is part of my journey on The Path. It is an outgrowth of steps I have taken at the Edge of my Dream. Previous posts outline my evolution (or is it devolution?). Insha’Allah I will emerge from this process as a new being – although I can’t be sure of the form. The caterpillar to butterfly story is only a metaphor.

I AM bearing with me…

He who knows men is clever;

He who knows himself has insight;

He who conquers men has force;

He who conquers himself is truly strong;

He who knows when he has got enough is rich;

And he who adheres assiduously to the path of Tao is a man of steady purpose.

He who stays where he has found his true home endures long,

And he who dies but perishes not enjoys real longevity.

Tao Te Ching 33

The Essence Remains Intact while Self-Transformation IS in Process

At a court banquet, everyone was sitting according to their rank, waiting for the king to appear. A simply dressed man came in and took a seat above everyone else.  The prime minister demanded that he identify himself.

“Are you the advisor of a great king?”

“No, I rank above a royal advisor.”

“Are you a prime minister?”

“No, I outrank a prime minister.”

“Are you a king in disguise?”

“No I am above that rank as well.”

“Then you must be God!” shouted the prime minister said sarcastically.

“No, I am above that.”

“There is nothing above God!” shouted the prime minister.

The stranger replied calmly, “Now you know me. That nothing is me.”

Traditional Sufism

I AM in the midst of a transitory period characterized by a Great Aspiration.  The life that claims me is exhilarating and rewarding.  In all honesty, more can not be asked or expected.

In this life I AM many things to many people. I AM son, father, husband, friend, lover, teacher, student, leader, follower… the list goes on.  I AM Blessed. Insha’Allah I will continue in these various roles as I AM is transformed to “NOTHING”.

I now aspire to be that NOTHING.

Insha’ Allah, I AM becoming…

I’m Back …Still Here!

Been a little busy

Much stuff going on

Refocused my attention

Actions speaking larger than words

New stage and sense of balance

Blogosphere reclaimed…

I AM Back!

I AM Here!

Let’s Talk Soon.